Sunday, January 31, 2010


Simon has been begging for sloppy joes and tator tots for over a month now. It's one of his favorite meals. I FINALLY made it for him, but he ate all the tator tots earlier so I made mac and cheese. I've been experimenting with different sloppy joe mixes, rather than sticking with the canned manwich. Last time I used one of the packets, and OMGosh, it was wonderful. This time I debated on bi-lo brand or name brand. I went with cheaper bi-lo brand. DH liked it pretty well. I on the other hand, HATE it. It's so nasty. NEVER again. So disgusting.

Another yuck, I have a yeast infection. :-( Simon leaves tomorrow early in the morning for a week. He wanted to have a little fun tonight, but I feel so gross, not to mention the pain, itching, and discomfort I'm feeling. I took a diflucan today and I have some monistat cream. Hopefully I'll be symptom free in no time. Until then YUCK!!

And for the reason I got the infection in the first place, I'm on an antibiotic. Don't worry I have stocked up on yogurt now. I'm on antibiotic for a gum infection, which is another YUCK. I had a root canal many a year ago, I was maybe 15 or 16. The dentist failed to mention I needed a crown. So with time that tooth has broken quite a bit (it's in the back). All that's left is the bottom (closer to the gum) and the outer wall. Last March the gum all around it got massively infected. It was no fun. It hurt to eat. The gum was swollen, and just plain irritated. Back in March I was also sick with a sinus infection so I was given antibiotic, which got rid of the gum infection too. WELL, the gum infection came back, maybe it's time I get the remains of the tooth pulled. It was so painful this time, that my jaw on that side felt bruised and hurt. My cheek on that side was swollen. The good news is I'm about halfway through w/ the antibiotic and the pain is about half gone.

I'm pretty sure that's all the "yuckiness" for now.

Friday, January 29, 2010

I'm smart

Class is going GREAT!! Better than I ever thought. We have a quiz every Monday, and he takes the 5 highest quiz grades we have and uses those for the final grade. Welp, I have 1 quiz grade behind me. He passed them back out on Wed. and when he gave me mine he told the class if they are into cheating to sit beside me. I was the only one who got them all right, and I was even the first one finished, and I checked over my answers before handing it in. It was pretty easy, but I have a big head now. I'm understanding the next section pretty well now. At first it was a little hard, but I'm getting it now. The chapter in the book is throwing me off, but fortunately his lectures are making sense and he quizzes on the lectures, so that's good.

Ellie is doing great. If I stand her up in the middle of the room, she will remain standing for a few seconds, sometimes 30 seconds or more. When I stand her up, she laughs so hard it's hard for her to stand.

Simon is home and we are enjoying our time together. Possible TRIGS (TTC) I'm about to O so it's a miracle that he's home for the first C's O. I'm not holding my breath that I'll get pregnant. I think I've said it before, I wouldn't mind Ellie and a sibiling being 18months apart, but I'm pushing for closer to 2yrs apart. I would be ok with 3yrs apart. All this plus PCOS and endo is why I'm we're doing what we can this early.

Anyways, I think that's it. Yep it's a short post this time around.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Clomid alternative-Soy Isoflavones

Apparently the $6 vitamin is supposed to be much like clomid. You take it like clomid 5 days at the beginning of the cycle, you get the same side effects, and apparently your chances of getting pregnant on it are similar to those who take clomid. Only thing, it's not FDA approved for fertility. With that comes, you aren't under a doctor's care as you take it. As many of you may know u/s's and b/w are a part of a clomid cycle.

Here's the kicker; I read this past week about a woman C2 of TTC, never had a baby yet, so she's brand new to the TTC thing, she's planning on taking it next cycle. Apparently it's growing in popularity amognst the new TTCers. I understand being impatient and excited about TTC. I remember trying different things as I learned them to hopefully be the "key" to pregnancy. I know, not as much as some, but more than some too, how heartbreaking a BFN is. BUT, to go out on your OWN w/out a doctor and taking something that is like clomid...that's a bit upsetting. I can understand if you've been on clomid before or if you have PCOS, or if you've been trying longer and no results yet, or if you have a history of IF. I mean eventually I may try it, but I highly doubt it. I'm not trying to bask these women who I feel are jumping the gun and taking it. I just don't understand how you can rationalize it. I mean, say you've never had IF issues, only been TTC for 2 cycles, how would you validate taking clomid?? Same idea here.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

All About us

Most important one first, lol.

Ellie is doing GREAT!! She is walking with her little push toy, it's so cute. Sometimes she will push herself away and let go of what she's leaning on, and well, she falls. But she's trying really hard to stand on her own. She gets credit for that. I took her to the park 2 times this last week, we had some great weather and had to get out. She loves the park and LOVES the swing. She cries when we leave the park. But you know, we can't stay there constantly, we do have to come home. She still just has 2 bottom teeth, no top ones yet. I took her with me to get formula yesterday. I laid one can on her lap and she didn't want me to take it from her. She picked it up (powder formula can) and tried to drink it, lol. Then today I got her baby food. She wasn't hungry till she saw the jars, so I had to get out the puffs and feed her as we finished up in the store. Her vocab is growing. When she's with dada and not me, she says moma. When she's with me and not dada, she says dada. The seldom times she will say our name around us she'll generally look at us. So cute.

Simon: All is well. He's enjoying his job. He's back out for another week, then will be home for a few days.

Me: GREAT!! Class is awesome. I don't know if it's because I'm older, taking one class, or I'm highly interested in the class, but it's a lot easier than college classes were back in the day. Only problem is the class is too short. I could have stayed in class for another 30 minutes. I've lost 6lbs in a month. Ok maybe that's not great, but I had lost the weight, then Christmas I gained it or most of it back, and now I've lost it. I had to go to a doctor I went to last month so they have a good comparison. I have a lot more energy since getting my IUD out. I used to have to nap at least 1 time a day, now I'm having no problems with 1 nap a week. I can even stay awake with little to no problem on Sunday afternoons. That says a lot.

I have another topic of discussion, but I'll save it for a later date. The previous pictures were taken less than a week ago.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Nursing or Surgical Tech

The last week or so I've been thinking that maybe I should just go on for my RN, but it's going to take a couple years longer, be more expensive, BUT pay twice as much as Surgical Tech. I mentioned it to my mom and she told me of the nurse at her pain clinic. When she told him I was going to school for Surgical Tech he asked why not RN, it's just an extra semester. Yes, the program is an extra semester, however, It has a lot more prerequisites. None of my stuff will transfer because it's been longer than 5yrs. In the end it will be more fulfilling to do nursing, but to get there is going to be a lot harder. Any thoughts on this would be great. Surgical Tech or Registered Nurse????

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Daniel Fast

My church is in the middle of doing a Daniel Fast, for more info on what a Daniel fast is, check out this site:

I was raised Baptist, not Church of God(as I am now), so I learned very little about fasting growing. Well,actually I didn't learn anything. All I learned about fasting was sometimes before blood work or a medical procedure you had to fast after midnight, which meant you needed to wake up at 11:30pm for a snack, or so that's what my grandma did. LOL. I'm not 100% if I understand the spiritual benefits of a Daniel Fast. I came to learn that you fast, and drink only water and the time you would be cooking and eating, you spend in prayer and reading the Bible. Maybe I was wrong in this idea. The Daniel Fast is something you do for 21 days. On the above mentioned website, they have recipes and foods you can eat. So much for not cooking. As you may have gathered from reading thus far, I'm not participating in the Daniel Fast, just yet. However, I went to the store this evening and bought some fresh fruits and veggies, nuts, and hummus. While I really don't understand the spiritual aspect, I do understand the physical aspect, and I plan on eating Daniel Fast friendly foods more often. One day at a time, but maybe 3 days a week, or maybe even more. For added protein, I think I'll throw in eggs to the mix. Gone with the easy microwavable easy when I'm just cooking for myself. Gone w/ the occasional soft drink and other snacks that I really shouldn't be indulging in, like my tortilla chips that I have become so fond of lately.

I was doing so well with losing weight before Christmas. I was eating very sensibly and was quite proud of myself, when the scales showed I lost 8lbs in less than a month. That was before Christmas. The after all the holiday foods, I gained 6lbs back. I haven't weighed since then, but I haven't been "good" since then either. I just haven't had the will power. However, I think I'm getting back on track. Like I said I went to the store, and despite how much ice cream or other junk appealed to me, I stuck with the healthy stuff. I got a couple avocado's, apples, grapefruits, bananas, tangerines, and celery stalks. I already had lettuce and mushrooms. I'm not too fond of apples, but Ellie likes to gum on a chunk, so I figured we could share an apple. I can even dip it in peanut butter, hey it's protein. I usually drown grapefruits with sugar, however, I have some of the Truvia, I figured I could put on it. I LOVE avocado's and I'm trying to get Ellie to be the same, however she's not the most thrilled with them. She doesn't care for anything green. Banana's are the best. Celery is pretty good, especially w/ peanut butter or a little ranch dip. Tangerines are good, just don't care for peeling them. I also got some nuts, with I'm not totally fond of, but I think I can make it work. I have tofu in the fridge and my eggs. I guess I'm going pretty vegetarian on myself. LOL. I've always liked the idea of being more vegetarian. As long as you aren't on an all carb diet, it seems pretty healthy. Hopefully I can jump on this new way of eating pretty good and lose some pounds. My next allowed splurge event will be my anniversary at the end of February, then the one after than is Ellie's birthday at the beginning of April.
I'm going to try and be accountable on here w/ progress. Not necessarily revealing my weight, but just to get how I'm doing out.
Oh and BTW, Ellie has her 9 month appointment on Thursday and I start my class on Friday. I'm so excited!!!

Friday, January 8, 2010

Kinda sorta TTC#2

IUD is out, AF has shown up today. I'm going to start out temping and charting. As for timing...can't do that for a while. With Simon not home so much, we'll just DTD when he's here. Eventually we will predict when I'll ovulate and try to get him home during that predicted time.

I'm not too optimistic though. After all Endo and PCOS are weighing against me AND now w/ Simon's new career. So for a while I'm not really even going to stress about it or anything. I mean, I have Ellie to keep me busy and love on, so I'm feeling good about having to wait some. Hence why I'm starting to chart now, rather than later. I would like Ellie and #2 to be a couple years apart, but if I got pregnant this month, I would be ok with them being 18 months apart.

I've went to TTCJSO on webmd. OMGosh!!! Those girls are nuts. Many of them are so depressed and emotional because they got a BFN their FIRST cycle trying and they even tested early. Then somebody asked how many DPO everybody was and what the symptoms people had. I know I was once them, but I could gag. The vast majority were all acting pregnant with their "symptoms." Not that all are the same, but for me all I had was I felt like I was going to start my period. Until m/s came between 5-6wks. But these girls are all already feeling m/s and everything else you can think of. Now, surely they aren't ALL pregnant just like that. But still what's the most upsetting is the way people are so distraught over ONE failed cycle. If I stay w/ these people long, I just may go off on some people. I think I will end up coming across as being some know it all bitch, but oh well. I just hate when women talk like their world is falling apart when they haven't been TTC but for a couple months when I know so many that have tried for many years and some have even given up. Grrrr. So, I may not be on that board for long. Fortunately life is about to get VERY busy for me and I wont have time to spare so I wont be able to go on much.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


My schooling
As if having a rapid crawling, standing 9 month old doesn't keep me busy enough. I am registered for my 1 class, it's paid for, I have my books, and I've read, highlighted, and made notes for the 1st chapter. Class starts on Jan 15th. The only problem I have is childcare. I have class MWF, Mondays are longer because I also have a lab, Wed and Friday are only 50 minute classes. So I just need part time child care, not something that daycares have and I've had no luck finding in home daycares. I found and put in my info, and there is a babysitter that sounds like she would be a perfect for us. I just have to pay the 1 time fee to be able to communicate with her and hopefully it works out. As it stands, Simon's Nana will keep Ellie on Mondays, my mom on Friday's, and I still don't have anybody for Wed. I'm looking for somebody to temporarily fill that spot, but if I can't find anybody, then I'm pretty sure Nana and my mom will be able to alternate weeks for Wednesday. Hopefully I don't need to use them for many weeks. My mom's disability is getting real bad, her back is TOO bad for surgery. She's in so much pain all the time. Nana is over 80yrs old. I just really don't want to wear either of them out. If Ellie was 2months old, it would be different as she would pretty much stay in one place, but she's very active now. So hopefully this all will work out. BTW, the class I'm taking intro to human biology. If I get a B or better in the class, I will get extra points to get me into the Surgical Tech program I've talked about before.

She's doing great. She has a chronic runny nose, and I took her to the doctor today. They gave her loratidine. As for sending her to an allergist, they said they generally don't do that until they are 2yrs old. However, since she has CF they said to call her CF doctor to see what they though. The pedi's view on it, is that if a young child has allergies, it doesn't just suddenly start at age 2. The CF doctor says it's a parental call, they support it, and told me the one they recommend her seeing. I called the pedi back and told them what I was told. Now I'm waiting to see if the pedi does want to go ahead and send her to the allergist or see if the loratidine helps. Either way I'm happy. I was afraid they would give her antibiotics when I didn't see any reason for it. She's not running a fever, not even a low grade. She's not losing sleep. The only congestion is higher up, and I was pretty sure it wasn't in her lungs, which was correct. So we'll see what happens with the allergist.

WOW, ready for drama?? Ready or not here it comes. So he, well we were satisfied with his assigned teammate. He was experienced and got around great in the snow and ice. He has 5 kids, one of which is the same age as Ellie, maybe a few days or week or so different. Well, the only problem when they came home for break, Simon tried and tried to get in touch with the guy. His wife and mother in law kept answering and talking to Simon. He could never talk to the teammate. His family was pissed at Simon, but Simon just wanted to know when they would go back out to make money. Apparently dude didn't want to go back out or something. Over a week later, Simon FINALLY talked to the teammate. Well they met at the terminal and weren't any loads, go figure. The guy was yelling and cursing at Simon in front of other drivers, and Simon laughed at him. I would have been yelling and cursing and throwing stuff at him. I have more of a temper than my husband. He was pretty much blaming Simon for the fact that he didn't get to spend time w/ his family (he was off for over week, wasn't Simon's fault). Then on Sunday, somehow the guy found out his license was suspended. My mail doesn't run on Sundays, so I don't know. But, he had a ticket from some time, and never paid it, now there's a warrant for his arrest. So Simon found another teammate, an older man, like in his 70's. BUT then the company had a slip seat position open and offered it to Simon. What's up with the required 6 months of teaming? Oh well, it's a better option for us so he took it. Now he awaits a truck. What slip seat is, he will get paid a certain amount every week. Beyond that, he will get millage. So it'll be more sure income. He will drive a truck for 7 days then take everything out of that truck and be home for 3-5 days, then go back out in a different truck for another 7 and start the whole thing again. During that 3-5 days, once a month he will probably act like he's really home, spending time with us and stuff, but the other times, he's going to drive the shuttle van for $150 a day to extra income on top of the minimum amount he'll get. The reason for him doing the shuttle van is because if he was out there with a team or solo we would have him stay out for 3-4 weeks then come home for 4-5 days. The other option is 2wks over the road and a crappy 2 days home. Our thoughts were stay out a month, come home for a few days. We would get more money and more time off when he's home. So w/ the slip seat program, he can keep working while he's off, just as he would if he was over the road still. Sure there are downfalls of this plan but it's going to work, we really think it will. After my class is over in May, I will apply for him for local trucking jobs, since most like for them to have 6 months experience. When he's local, if circumstances are ok, he want to try and take a night course in theology. It's looking like we will be keeping pretty busy this year with working, Ellie, schooling, and everything else that comes up.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Happy New Year

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Gave birth and bought a house and cared for a hubby w/ a broke leg, and breastfed.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don't think I made a one last year, this year, yes, I'm making a couple. Save more money, and lose more weight.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Goodness yes, I gave birth. Two of my SIL's did, 2 cousin's did, lots of good friends did. Many bloggers gave birth.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

5. What countries did you visit?

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Stability, no moves 1 good job for DH.

7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 4- My daughter was born. April 8- Hubby broke his leg

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Having my daughter

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not losing my weight after giving birth as quick I should have.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Umm, not really, I did have surgery to fix a torn sphincter.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My hubby's for going back to trucking school, getting a good job and enjoying it.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Not sure if other's behavior makes me depressed. Well, if Hubby's depressed I get depressed. I am always appalled at my aunt behavior, she's such a manipulative conniving you know what.

14. Where did most of your money go?

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Having my baby.

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
N/A not huge into songs, don't really know titles and stuff.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?
a) happier
b) thinner, much thinner
c) richer

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Socializing and cleaning

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
being lazy

20. How did you spend Christmas?
At home w/ hubby and my baby. My family came for lunch and my MIL and nana came for dinner.

21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I fell in love with my baby.

22. What was your favorite TV program?
I got sucked into the Teen Mom's and Jon and Kate +8, I got into The Doctors

23. Do you hate anyone now that you did not hate this time last year?

24. What was the best book you read?
Don't really remember, but I know there was one.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Um, Ellie, she loves to hit the drums

26. What did you want and get?
House and baby

27. What did you want and not get?
Friends where we moved.

28. What was your favorite film of this year?
Again, I don't remember, but I KNOW there was one that I LOVED. I'll have to ask DH.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 26, we went to Pigeon Forge, TN for one of the shows, and to the Apple Barn, and came home.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
More money

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Comfy, and scarce, I wore the same things many times. PJ's became my uniform on my favorite days.

32. What kept you sane?
My baby was my sanity most of the time. When she became my insanity, my mom or DH helped a lot, wasn't very often though.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Umm, Dr. Sear's on the Doctor's

34. What political issue stirred you the most?
Universal Health Care and all the many bailouts

35. Who did you miss?
My mema

36. Who was the best new person you met?

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009.
This too shall pass.

Happy New Year, 1 day late.