Saturday, September 27, 2008

Noticed something on the ultra sound pictures

I was looking at my latest ultra sound pictures. I guess it would be easier if I had them online, but I'll do it soon, I promise. But, the top picture is really confusing. It looks like 3 legs, or could it be the cord. Way too soon for it to be anything, and this is actually way too big to be something else. It is just a bit strange. Could it still be a little bit of a tale at 10wks, 3 days? Also, I can't help but notice on the 2 that has my whole uterus, there's a circle. Not the little circle surrounding the baby. This is up on the other side of where the baby is. The baby is on one side, and the other side beside it's head, is a little circle. Simon said it's the 2nd baby. If it is, then it's one of those that's been absorbed and just didn't work out. I don't know though. You'll see what I'm talking about when I post the pictures on my babiesonline page, and maybe I'll work on putting them on here. What could an additional circle be though? It's a perfect little circle, a bubble maybe? I looked at other ultra sound pictures, and didn't see a circle on them like this.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

D/A update

At 10wks, I just had a doctor's appointment. This will be short and sweet, I promise. He needed to check my white blood count. Oh yeah, I was in the hospital overnight last week due to dehydrated and through the roof white blood count and high plalette level. I'm feeling much better now, more "normal." Saturday was a terrible day where nothing stayed down at all, however it was followed by some good days, unlike the previous weekend. It was a very short appointment.
I did get to Beanie Bear again on the u/s. I saw the legs and arms, and they were moving. I heard the heart beat for the first time. It was 172BPM. Beanie Bear waved the arms by the face. It was adorable and priceless. I have another appointment in 4wks. I guess then, I'll have another one in 4wks, and it'll be the BIG u/s.

See told you, short and sweet.

Thursday, September 11, 2008


It seems like 7yrs ago was just yesterday. I can't believe that it has been that long since the entire nation was glued to the TV as we watched the 2nd tower fell. I'm getting cold chill bumbs just thinking about it.
Where were you when it happened?
How did you find out?
What were your thoughts and feelings?

It was my first semester in college. I'll never forget, it was a Tuesday morning. I went to my first 8:00am-9:15am class, Freshman Seminar. When it was over, I had until 10:00am before my next class, so I went to the cafeteria to get some breakfast. I sat down with my tray, and watched the 2nd tower fall. I could not finish eating my breakfast. There were only a couple other students in the rather large cafeteria and I felt alone. So, I left the cafeteria, to find a huge group of people gathering around the large T.V. I joined the group of strangers as we watched the news. The time came that I had to go to my American History since 18 (something) class. I went to class, and everybody looked like zombies. The professor talked for a few minutes about what was going, and dismissed class. She said that our children and grandchildren would be learning about the day in their American History classes one day. I went back to my dorm room to find out that all classes had been canceled. For the remainder of the day, it seemed that every dorm room was open, every T.V. was on a news channel, and for once, you would make eye contact with perfect strangers as you walked down the sidewalk. Nobody wanted to be left a lone. Each were hurting and morning in their own way. Some had friends and family who lived and worked in the area. Most in my area new that friends and family and some of them, would be deployed in the months to come. Fear struck over all, as we were fairly close to a large Army base. We all knew to some extent what the future held.

May we never forget those who lost their lives, and those who lost loved ones in the tragedy on 9/11. May God give you peace, as yet another year has passed.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Update...I'm terrible at blogging

The key to blogging is to actually blog. LOL, I'm horrible at this stuff. No wonder I don't have many readers.

Well, I'm got some updates, and some food for thought.

We found out that Simon IS a carrier for Cystic Fibrosis as well. That leaves us with a 25% chance of having a child with cystic fibrosis aka 65 roses. My doctor said we can do the amnio to find out if the child has CF, if we plan on terminating the pregnancy if the child does have CF, then he said we need to do it ASAP. OMG, this upset me, that he would even be saying that. Of course I'm not going to terminate it. So at this point, we have concluded that we will NOT do the amnio to find out if Beanie Bear has CF. It's too much of a risky procedure, for what...just to know sooner. Some may say that's a good thing and needs to be known sooner so we can prepare ourselves. I agree to an extent. Thing is, Simon and I haven't always dreamed of having 1 kid, but we were hoping on 3ish maybe...if we can, if God allows. So, I'm figuring, I need to learn about CF, if not for Beanie Bear, but for one of the possible little brothers and/or sisters. Also, when looking for a pediatrician I will discuss the CF possibiity and make sure I find one that is good with that sort of thing. We plan on preparing ourself for the worse, but of course hoping for the best.
One may wonder how I'm doing with the possibility, especially since I'm a total worry wart. Well, in the first 24hrs I went through many thoughts and feelings. From anger and guilt, that if the child has CF, then it's my fault for giving the child the CF gene. To wondering if keeping the child and not termination, is selfish of me, saying I want my child so bad, that I will bring a "sick" kid into the world to suffer. Of course, I got off that feeling rather quickly. Now I'm at acceptance, if it does happen, I know that we will be wonderful parents to sick child. I have worked with a variety of disabilities, I can advocate, I can stay up at the hospital when need be, I can administer medications, and above all, I can love. I believe that Simon would follow suit. So, even if this baby has CF, we'll be fine.

Other than that this pregnancy is going great. I am very sick at times, not always first thing in the morning. I am throwing up from time to time. Today at work, I threw up and my face felt like pins and needles were sticking in it. My coworkers quickly noticed I looked like...well, you know, and made me sit in a recliner. They were very concerned for me. After several minutes of resting, I felt better, and could get back to my job full force, and I felt somewhat better with my stomach. I felt way better after eating lunch though. They told me that I will probably end up on bed rest. I know that it's always a possibility, but in my opinion, I can't jump at everything and freak out. Use caution and be wise, but relax as much as possible. I mean if that kind of thing reoccures then I'll talk to the doctor about it. Also I spotted again this morning. It was after having my first BM in like 2 days. I figured I would keep a close eye on things, if I continued to spot and spotted without having a BM, I would call the doctor. No more spotting as of now though. My nature is to be STUBBORN. I'm trying to tell myself, I can be stubborn all I want, but this baby can't handle me being stubborn, it's not fair to Beanie Bear, it's not me I'm being stubborn with, but the baby. So, I would like to say I'm being a trooper and just simply NOT freaking out at every little problem. Not that I'm being stubborn. I feel like I'll know if there's something wrong and I need to call the doctor. Right now, I think I can hold on to my normal life a while longer.